One of those days

I won't even ask if you've ever had "one of those days". If you're breathing, the answer is, "yes".
Let me back up a few months in thoughts. For several months now, I'll go through my days and think to myself, "I'm so blessed. God is so real and so sweet in my life right now." Then almost as fast as that thought comes, this one comes on it's heels, "I wonder what God is preparing me for in all this peace?"
Well, let me just say, in the past few days, well, it's been bad. And I don't mean just for me personally but rather for my children and grandchildren. I've cried for most of this day, moaning and groaning and feeling quite confused as to just what was going on. It felt like one attack after the other.
Now I've been on this journey with Christ for quite sometime now. And through it there have been many lessons learned. Now wouldn't you think the biggest lesson would have been this; that the enemy is out to steal and to kill and to destroy but that I belong to the Creator of the Universe and we win! But noooooo! In my misery, I lost sight of that fact! God forgive me, please.
Then late in the day my daughter sent me a link to a song she likes and asked me if I'd ever heard this version. I hadn't and being the good mother I pulled it up to listen to.
I was suddenly and compassionately pulled from my wallowing into the presence of God thru this song, IN JESUS NAME (live) by Darlene Zschech. After listening and crying some more I realized what was going on in my world. I and my family, were being attacked by invisible fiery darts from the enemy.
No, the fact that I realized what was going on, in fact, did not change the circumstances. It did however, change me. I do not have the power to change the circumstances, but God does. I do not have the power to redeem what was stolen, but God does. I can not, no matter how badly I want to, fix what's happening, but God can.
My job is to lay it all before the alter, lift it all up in prayers like incense before my God. My job is to rest in the knowledge that I am not in control but that I serve the one who is. No, I don't understand it, I'll never understand it, but that part is not my job. Just breathe. Gods got this!